Saturday, September 04, 2010 @ 9:35 PM

yeah, mom was just speaking about how
big bro was so talkative and such a
gossip guy. was just pondering about it,
how i used to talk to him so much
about so many random stuff, how we
used to go fishing at the park together
as siblings. all three of us. cycling, having
swimming lessons together, just doing
many things together was the best
moment of my life.

but now we're like strangers, hardly ever
talk, we don't even eat at the dining table
together. where's all the love? where's all
the bond? when will we all be like what
we used to be? i want to try. try to speak to
you. but will you even respond? you make
me afraid to speak to you because i'm afraid
of the annoyed response i get.

i mean, even friends who heard from my mouth,
just verbally, know that we're like strangers.
not even looking, they know. we're so far apart
that even writing that well wishes to you
for your army training, i addressed you as "hey".
i don't know what to do to make it alright.